Impatient, and yearning for the improbable

This week my child will have his yearly allergy check-in. He had his blood taken last week, and on Thursday we go to his allergist to see what's changed, if anything.

For some bizarre reason, after dealing with PN allergy and avoiding tree nuts for 4.5 years, I want it to go away! I want our doctor to tell us L's IgE has dropped, that he is definitely not allergic to any tree nuts. It is hard to understand why, at this stage, I am yearning for him to be free of tree nut allergy. Maybe because he has a suspected nut allergy, and I want him (and us) to have more freedom in what and where he can eat safely? But why now? I just thought I was beyond all that dreaming.. but it seems not. The yearning is still here (it was hidden deep for 4 years).

The yearning to be free of dealing with allergies is also seeping into my awareness in the form of peanut sub-lingual immunotherapy.. you know, building up tolerance to the allergen by eating a minuscule amount of the allergen, and increasing the dose weekly until (hopefully) the allergic persons body learns to tolerate the allergen. So many people both local and international have helpfully told me about, or sent me emails with links describing the great new breakthrough research results in the UK and US, which shows many children respond well to SLIT.

I think all this has built up hope for something better. I want my child to be one of the children who outgrows, or can be treated!